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Today (or yesterday at 11 pm technically) I reached a hundred days clean of my self-harm addiction.

I don’t know what anything will hold in store

I’m not too scared about that or even stressed

I still believe I’ll get worse again but at the moment, I’m okay

two months ago in psych ward

after my last toxic psychosis… never touching that shit again

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I've been going to a lot of different meetings lately and I just got my 6 months chip from AA last night. I will get my 6 months tag from NA on Monday. This is the longest I have ever been sober by choice. The sober living program I'm in is the best decision I have ever made. I get more support here than I ever have from anywhere else.

“The College Experience” On Being the Sober Friend

Many people seem to think that the Sober Friend, the one who doesn’t party, but will come get you and fix you up misses out on some fundamental aspects of the college experience. And yet in looking back I believe I got to experience some of the highlights of being drunk and/or high without the expense of the traditional substances. Then again, there were still the health services fees and engineering textbooks cost more than boose so...?

1. Master of Vomiting.

Yep...Noro. I can vomit while practically laying down on the toilet. The trick is to strangle the piping. I’m also quite skilled at running while nauseated and, knock on wood, haven’t missed the toilet yet. 

2. Waking up on the floor + awkward interactions with someone I barely know.

Whatever you do, don’t take a shower when you’re severely dehydrated. 

3. Inability to walk a line 

Albuterol after I had the flu

4. Memory Loss

Severe sleep deprivation will do that. 

5. Bloodshot eyes

Sleep is for people who don’t have a major statics project and circuits and a thermo exam due the same day. 

6. Anti-skunk smell procedures

The people across from me didn’t have to wash their laundry but I wasn’t about to get suspended for their lack of caution and found myself freebreeze-ing my room with the best of em’. 

7. The munchies

No excuse for this one. Three weeks four boxes of marshmallow fruit loops. 

big shift inside

been sober for 20 days, vegan for 17 hours. don't want props, just a fact.

Each in the pants of the other- from episode 6

Denials.

I'm just about 1 month away from having 2 years of sobriety. November 10 is my sober birthday.

Meine Haut zu dünn, durchsichtig - Ich bin ein Geist. Reisse mich solange zusammenen bis es mich zerreisst.

Planen? Wann denn? Mein Kalender ist pechschwarz. Der einzige Ausblick den ich hab' ist der aus meinem Fenster.

Hasse mich und mache mich tot, ja. Mit dem Liq oder mit dem Pulver. Betäube mich innerlich, äußerlich, manchmal clean, doch niemals sober.

Bin verwirrt, verstehe nicht was du sagst oder was ich mein'. Such' verzweifelt nach einem Halt doch die Angst, sie bleibt.

Ich schieb' Frust, ich schrei, halt den Rand und schweig. Überzeugt, ich hätt' nichts oder alles ist meins, doch die Angst, sie bleibt.