strugglingasahuman
A bit older, more "tired", definitely more worn, but still trying.
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hehehe I like it. Not exactly a museum shot but a fun one just the same. I should definitely do more in the reflections direction.
Never too old to learn.
Today I learned that you can smell a mint plant by basically giving it a grab n stroke. I also learned what one version of a wormwood plant looks like and that Modelo Negra is at least acceptable as long as ya don't let it sit too long. To be fair though, I'm not really a beer person so all of them struggle to impress me completely. I also learned that the mint plant I chose SHOULD help eliminate the regrowth of some of the danger plants in the one section of my yard. This, was VERY pleasing information. I also learned that chicken and waffles, as goofy as it sounds, can be an enjoyable combination. Yes, today... was very educational. lol
I find my courage in each small step forward; my motivation grows with every challenge I embrace, turning hurdles into stepping stones.
Art is fun. You don't have to like my art. My art doesn't need to be considered great. I'm not hurting anyone with my art and it makes me feel good so to me.. it's just fine. I don't NEED to get better at it. I don't NEED to do it a certain way. I simply need to enjoy it, and in my mind.. not cause any damage to anyone else. It took me a long time to allow myself that freedom and now that I understand it, I refuse to go back to trying to fit someone else's box. Enjoy art... your own way.
Reflection...
It has come to my attention that I have not yet really played with reflections in photography. It seems to be such a popular thing and yet, I dig and find... I don't really have any of that sort of thing. Reflections in calm lakes, mirror and glass sorts of reflections... hmmm. I'm not feeling great today so maybe I'll see about trying some of that with some small items.
The same examples can be found for leg protection and other safety gear. It's annoying sometimes but yes... safety first! Ride safe folks. Too many things can happen so fast... especially when other drivers are involved.
SAFETY FIRST
Miles!
Okay, here is where I will post a question. Does anyone use MapMyFitness? I don't do the big challenges they offer as I'm not exactly in ... the condition.. to participate effectively but, I do enjoy tracking the miles of my walks, hikes, and stuff like bicycle rides. I just think it would be neat to have someone there again to share with. It can be a fun little motivational boost as well. Meh... the question is here. Maybe someday it will prove useful. hahaha
Circular saw kit for the Dremel ......... hahaha Okay.. so I decided to share it here too because well, I wrote about it so I figured I’d show ya what I was talking about. Enjoy... and be nice... I’m learning.
For the record... olive wood smells really cool when cut. My next cuts were MUCH better. heh Practice helps. haha
Learning.
Hah.. so today was the trial and error section of learning how to create an instructional sort of video. There are so many things one does not think about until doing something like this. The first "fail" was finding out that my phone camera had reset itself to photo instead of video. The second "fail" was figuring out that half of what I was doing was actually out of the sideways (oops) frame. The third "fail" was realizing that once I completed the biggest part of the project, the item I needed to show the final "test" was nowhere close to my workstation. hahaha I have made adjustments and will try again soon... HOPEFULLY creating the video I wanted to create from the start and then, I will get it shared in the correct locations. The sharing of videos to certain spots was something I finally tested the rest of the way yesterday so i feel fairly confident that it will go where I want it to go. hahaha Life is fun sometimes. Enjoy.
hahaha Okay, I don't play as much as I used to, and what I do when I play has definitely changed BUT... then and now I can not express enough how thankful I am for this site. With updates, questions, and curious finds, this site has helped me sooooo many times... to figure out what, where, how, and uhm... now what can I do with that information?. hahahaha Enjoy!
Old dogs CAN learn new tricks!
It's fun. When we're young we get shoved in many directions by those who are supposed to be "teaching" us. We don't realize just how broken most of those folks are and to be fair, they usually don't have a clue either. As we grow and experience life, we get shoved around by reality and forced to play by certain rules because well, things don't slow down long enough in many cases to realize there are other options. Here's where I giggle and say again... broken humans creating broken humans. But, if we're lucky... there comes a point where we can take a breath, look around, see just how twisty things, situations, and people really are.... and begin to rethink how we want to navigate our way through the chaos. That's where I'm at. It's messy. I make mistakes. I wander around clueless a lot. I flop onto the floor and just wait for things to give me less of a headache. I try new things. I laugh and cross some things off my try, or try again, lists. And sometimes... I squeal like a hyper six year old and giggle bounce trying to show anyone who will pay attention my most recent accomplishment... even if sometimes it seems MUCH bigger to me than it would to ANYONE else. hahaha The important part here is that I'm learning a LOT about who I am, who I was sort of forced to pretend to be, and how the actual me can function more smoothly in the world of twisty humans. I'm beginning to understand glitches, adjust my priorities, find new ways of seeking the options I want, and having plenty of fun in the process. I really wish I could have done this when my brain and body were a bit more... cooperative but hey... take it when ya get it right? heh Anyway... I've shared. I hope you're having some fun in the little glimmery moments of life. Laters.
I found this on WordPress after I got told to look it up. Why did I get told to look it up? Well, because that is similar to the process I went through as I geared up to attack the danger plants in my yard today, in the VERY hot sun, with a light breeze, and currently fighting a cold. LOL .... I ended up with sun protection, dust protection, eye protection, arm protection, boots, gloves, and laughter. hahaha I will say this though.... I WON. Danger plants dealt with and NO RASH! I am satisfied!
Should you fancy a read and not carry a fear of thinking... here's my current recommendation. Enjoy.
“Listen to people who know more than you do. Then do it your own way.”
— Alan Parker
DONKEY DAY!!!
Well, I did not realize a day had been created to celebrate the sturdy donkey but... now that I am aware of it, I MUST say.....
- - - HAPPY WORLD DONKEY DAY!!!
I'm not one that agrees with creating a day for everything so that humans will acknowledge the ... contribution... that people, places, creatures, or things have in what humans call progress BUT... if that is something that is needed... I will GLADLY support the recognition of the hard work animals do as slaves to the ... humans.
Dating with purpose?
When you are young and pretty, there are things like "Seeking Arrangements" and more than a few other options online and off to get whatever it is you're after. But, what about when you're older, not so pretty, and no longer trying to pay for school? Are there rich folks out there, looking for old, chonky, and broke... but funny, curious, and not "dead" yet? Are there also dating? sites for that sort of connection? Seems to me everyone wants a pretty face or some sort of impressive resume but what about the folks still trying to find happy, without the good looks, or impressive "goals"? Are they stuck dealing with whatever they can find at the local bingo hall?
hahahaha Random curious thoughts.... heh.
I have a love for the beauty, and madness, of thinking.
Things...
It's a $15 coffee pot... why go through so much hassle to extend the life of it? Because it's about appreciating what you have. Appreciate that you have a working coffee pot. Put forth the effort to care for it and extend it's life because it is of value and it serves you well.
This was the conversation that led to me finally understanding that far too many people don't value what they have. Stuff is just... things to buy, sell, use, and replace... and sadly, that includes people. Far too many value the money to buy the stuff and the power money gives them over people, but they can't... or don't want to... see the value in the things themselves. It's sad. It explains a lot but, it's ... sad. Maybe I'm a big weirdo but I think things, people included, are more than just items to be bought, sold, used, and replaced.
... Okay... rant over. Have a wonderful day.
I am watching the movie "The Furnace" and I heard a quote that hit me in ways I can't even describe. "Strength, isn't measured by how much you can take before you break, it's how much you can take... after you're broken." .... Seriously, I can not even begin to express how much I felt that... so I felt it good to share. I can't say I always feel strong, but yeah, sometimes... I feel like a serious badass. haha
We all have our own battles. Whatever yours are.... take a deep breathe, listen to yourself, you got this... no matter how it may sound, look, or feel. Much love.
Craftsmanship.
I am beginning to realize that I appreciate those who value true craftsmanship. Modern life is full of products and services but the true art of creating something, or doing something with a genuine passion is usually lost behind the desire for profit and ease. Items, relationships, general interactions... the true attention to detail, effort for quality, and non profit desire to build something that will serve the receiver well is so hard to find. For me, it's not so much about the prize, but rather the process of creating that prize. Whether it's a friendship, a deeper relationship, a product, a service of some sort, it should be more about what you are creating than how easily you can make a certain profit. Shallow human connections and poorly made products have definitely helped me see the real value in craftsmanship, and those who truly seek it. hah Well there's this round of food for thought. Laters!
haha Okay, I won't lie, I bought this because my curiosity was sparked by a soda called Curiosity Cola. It's actually pretty good so, no regrets. haha
Wanderers...
As I get to know myself and get rid of more of the past I realize just how deeply rooted my desire to wander is. While many seem perfectly happy with the drilled in idea of get a house, park yourself, settle in... I'm one of those that wants to move constantly. Every few years I'm okay with the idea of relocation. Give me new sites to see, new people to meet, new activities to explore. And to be honest, I think humans are wanderers by design. I mean think about it, without all the modern tools of survival, how would the human mammal survive? Chasing fair weather, constantly hunting naturally growing food sources, moving with free water sources... there's no way the human creature would survive long term in most locations, naturally. meh... ANYWAY... hahaha Enjoy your day.
Intro post?
It seems that's a rather popular thing so, I suppose I'll give it a shot. Let's see.... this blog is me being me. Random, silly, sometimes grumpy, and basically just wanting to share neat stuff with the humans that find their way to my little spot of the internet. I'm over 50. I've been through quite a bit and at the moment, I'm chest deep in an adventure to figure out what the picture of "me" looks like at this stage. I'm learning new tricks, trying new things, and just trying to make the most of this human experience. Sometimes I accomplish great things, sometimes I fall, scrape a few parts, and probably look like an idiot but... meh... it comes with being human?
Anyway, if you're here, hope you find something enjoyable. K.. bye.
Ants!
I can look at pictures online of bugs, insects, creepy crawlies, and the like.. and be completely mesmerized by the beauty and capabilities. I will also say though that, when I do something in my home and find something crawling ... my first and only panic attack thought line is DIE DIE DIE! Ants are on the top of that list for me. They come in, they go everywhere, and it never feels like they are gone for good. I understand all of the ... they serve a purpose, it's more there territory than ours, blah blah blah... but when they enter my house and are spotted.... I simply can not help the desire to burn the house down and run. They MUST DIE. hahahahha I know I am not alone. LOL
Truth?
Just a quick reminder that people can say just about anything, that doesn't mean it's correct. Videos and photos are edited all the time. News is HEAVILY controlled so as to only share what the company wants you to "know". Even if it's popular, it might not be safe, real, or a general good idea. Rumors spread faster than you can imagine and what you hear, might not even be the rumor that was actually started, let alone any bit of truth. And remember... everyone sees things differently and there's usually a LOT more to every story.
Print this out for a free frosty at your local gas station. Expires now.