Yet Another Shining Example Of Someone Allowing For Someone Else To Get Away With Illegal Activity &

I wrote a massive life update blog thing to go with this video https://youtu.be/OCMMIxXnPDo

Then something goofed apparently & it didn't save all of it. It saved nothing.

Who knows maybe one day I'll be able to get back all I wrote. It was very personal & truthfully I really needed to share it.

Even how I meditated to learn how to control my emotions & how people don't listen fully through my videos & then fish for information in the comments. Then have me repeating myself & them getting it. Together with my jokes not landing, the captions being off really often. & This other video I did with editing going after trolls in the video with me switching the background image but talking about things. Hiking with Phaser & it being like 32 or something minutes. I relate things in that.

Then I decided to write about how my self har m feelings are different than they used to be but now I subtly drive myself towards it until it's like when I intentionally drove too fast in a car out on a trail to roll off a cliff. Then got out after seeing the roof crushed in about 3 inches at most where my head had been & that it goes down to my shoulders & I would have easily died. Just got up, felt nothing, then proceeded to get a ride through Hitch hiking back. Lied about the intention, ended up later with my 5th hospital stay & 2nd court ordered treatment.

Man, there was a lot more in there that went over all that I did in there & how I knew I was disabled & couldn't work & "get out" "launch" & how my family was abusive. But couldn't accept it nor could I talk to anyone anymore or do anything else after all the meds, therapy, constant practice of coping skills & maintenance methods, the many many different therapies besides what I started with, the never ending invalidation of the work & it not ever being enough on top of them not needing to respect boundaries & so much more for perspective based thinking & how it means nothing when your abusers have power over you. You can't "reason" with them.

I knew I was headed towards homelessness & more once they felt annoyed enough & I wasn't doing enough work & or lying. I had no way out.

That & other things with people thinking they aren't already obliterated in my video, it's like k ink y p ron for those who get a thrill from listening to someone know what they are saying, confident in themselves, lead you into traps that you didn't know you had, & then evicerate a person thinking they are smart & know more but are just actually dumb & too confident in what they are saying. *Ree* & you can't solve this (although I agree it's a solve & works) in way I don't like! Even though many math problems are solved with realizing the order of operations can be different than what was thought & using that together with bridging the gap with a reason why & how this is done this way, the way it solves & proves the thing & is still actually the same thing but it wasn't thought of in this way because of these things. While I understand this is done & even using another equation's order of operations & even combining it with another equation helped solve a millennium problem, the guy that grows his own mushrooms & hates society & being online. Basically it's like, wait why not use (4x) + 2 = ? When x is equal to 4. Instead of 4 + x multiplied by itself x number of times + 2 = ? & Solve for x when x is the solution of (x)+ (x+ x) - 24 maybe divide by 8 + 13 = 4 question mark maybe it is 4, X + I dunno dude I'm it does this now & no ones challenges it by saying that must mean something changed & we need to make an order of operations change to having it do this part now of the equation to work it out this way now so I guess it 2 = equals around, maybe I dunno, 8 huge question mark about that though. Don't take my word for it. Seriously, also I explained this wrong, because I need an out.

Anyways. People make it infinitely harder to make it possible to be understood then get angry about things they cause themselves & them not understanding things. Jumping around in the video. More.

It's good content, though.

I went into more, who knows maybe one day someone will get it back to be shared!

Hormones For A Year & Stems Cells That Form Complicated Organs From One Injection

The worst part of this, is exactly what you think. People. People are the worst part of this.

But, it helps many people already, but don't be #american to get that help. As for the level of amazing #medicaladvancement this gets us, its decently high.

Bio-technology has come a long way, to the point its almost like we are in a cartoon or video game. Stuff we thought of as only fantasy is now a reality every day, this is included in that.

No immediate #stimpack , sure, but still rather amazing.  @kylehill  would know a few things about the complexity of something more significant about the idea of a stimpack but, it isn't doable the way they suggest. Ionic scaffold bonding of a given pumping of rapid differentiation stem cells together with a type of light based & chemical based "speed ups" (if you will) to the stimpack could immediately create a basic building block cell matrix structure that allows for blood & bio-organic compounds (man there are a lot of peptides, enzymes, mrna, dna, lipids, proteins, amino acids, just a lot of different things that get leaked out after a cell rupture from damage) to flow & start the process of rapidly carrying out cellular functions.

stem cells can't just immediately change, but when they are right next to another group of cells doing the thing, well it helps. Same for the majority of ionic bonding while light fills in the chemical reactions needed for rapid cellular bio reactionary functions when vibrations place them like acoustic tweezers together with optical tweezers & a bunch of already moving fluid that can be placed into a rough shape that it once was. Effectively, making nay sayers to science & tech eventually getting there (but meaningly) highly incorrect to the point the couldn't be correct. Ever, about that. But, as cool as it is to know an injection that forcefully (ouch!) injects anesthetic & pain blockers into a needed to place a bunch of rapidly non-cauterizing scaffolds of stem cells & the old cells together with needed nutrients & simple bio-organic compounds to make sticking together better & feed them to stay healthy & heal while turning into the needed cells, its not wonderful how much time you need it to turn into what you need.

Like, a liver for example, wouldn't be fully functioning immediately. You just wouldn't be bleeding out. However, the needed ways of making that more rapid, at the cost of some cell damage from heat & or cells not forming correct connective tissue fibers, are there. Just painful, extremely extremely painful. Good thing there are ways around that, I guess... You'll just need to be sore after, deal with it dude You Need To Live, Now. Remember? Brain not working, Shove it back together & regrow (i guess) & learn as you go. Don't worry, fresh new brain anyways.

Thing is, we can always store that as a protein & polymer lipid/ionic polymered Mrna compound that keeps yours neuro connections & the ways they talked together & looped, together with ionic synaptic states saved as a hard copy. Luckily our body does exactly that already. But, weirdly enough it just removes clumps of waste right now.

Would, I dunno, be a shame if we used that to our advantage as a breakout bio-organic stem cell process through embryonic stem cells you revert back from your old cells & standard stem cells you produce outside of it. turns out, yup, back from a single neuron. So long as it has the needed key. But wait, you can store that in your whole body. One cell, just one, is all you'll ever need. Good thing it needs to be nurtured back, otherwise it can never regrow without it.

A long #podcast going over my #theoryofeverything ideas, as they stand currently & a lot more. i edited this on my phone and it took several days to do. Lets see how it does https://youtu.be/sT7cLLYcmt4

#orderofoperations #lifeadvice

#biotech

Yeah it's in there

a strange way to force yourself to not learn thermodynamics & fluid dynamics quantum physicists

"dark photons" where photons are supposed to be, how about fields & movement of pressure waves relative to all other fields & quantum foam in your fluid thats thermally active & quantized

also nice rat video, glad you liked the study i posted on my reddit that led you to eventually adhd off-topic rabbit holing about rats in alberta

Full length rest of the video up to listen to like a podcast in the background of a person stimming & enjoy their nerdy ramblings

So I just went through my court case hearing for SSI & the judge threw out all my previous times in the mental health hospital, being homeless, my diagnosises, all my previous medications tried & experienced, all that showed my worsening condition from the last judgement & after filling all basically because my psychiatrist expressed doubt & believed I was faking my problems. In only 2 papers wrote malingering. Possibly, apparently it was written down this way, because I wanted to know more about my diagnosis & know my symptoms. Which meant that I immediately was faking it & looked it up to only fake it.

Oh, right also I had a trip to the ER late at night because of chest pains, nearly passing out & more (just grapefruit problem I didn't really think it would be something that effects me much, turns out no) but they misheard me stating I was working at night instead of trying to fix my sleep schedule (it had swapped & then I couldn't get to sleep, grapefruit kept meds in me longer & not doing that again) but that meant he believed I was working somewhere somehow.

Tried to go after me being hard of hearing, brought up voc rehab sending paperwork that I have them & that I've had them since before elementary. Barely commented, sounded like he didn't believe me but then realized he didn't look.

Disregarded the med experience of mine being paradoxical because of ADHD (why my stims work) but I also have atypical reactions too with treatment resistant. Which is why (finally had a doc believe me, should have gotten numbers & writing) I've had no luck ever with meds.

Clearly paranoid about it & felt I had decided to lie & become homeless, & all these other things just to get SSI. I went through all this, which actually I filled well before but the medical history stretches back before I was 10, faking it as the best pathological con man lier narcissist that just wanted himself to live a shitty terrible life the last almost 10 years.

Honestly, sucks. I'm not okay. Mom & dad know. I need better help. I had my lawyer switch on me almost the week before. Didn't even know it was in my case files. The judge just started denying everything, made sure the previous judgement wasn't accounted for just so it wouldn't be something I could bring up or my lawyer.

Lawyer says if I want to still try, I need to cancel my claim, try & get my doc to clear up the malingering, get a new doc & refile but it's also such a black mark I probably won't even be able to get on it. They also might not represent me later, because they probably couldn't win.

So thats the plan I guess, refile. Figure it out. Still can't work. Still being treated like I'm lying & being gaslit. I hate this/it. #springerville #Arizona #littlecoloradobehavioralhealth not bringing it on myself.

I decided to hike up to this cave through many tumble weeds & attempt to enjoy myself. Let me know what you think

Brand new drop!!! *Bwaaann bwaan bwwaahhh* it's how to solve the #Riemann #zetafunction w an explanation (but not the solve itself) #math

#milleniumpizeproblems

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