I Want My Nervous System To Calm Down First,

also vanya!

names related to butterflies, moths, and fireflies:

aruna, adela, ismeria, yara, greta, una, saffron, zephyr, chouko, eilira, parvaneh, calesia, luna, psyche, palmyra, acantha, asteria, isola, paru, mirza, esmeralda, zoumi, saga, kahli, ankova, apollo, thora, galatea, kimko, cayana, sula, malam, rekoa, ocaria, hesperia

The internet is unsafe for children

While cleaning your attic, you find a box of glass balls with names on them. You accidentally drop one, and as soon as it shatters, a person appears.

Anyone want to join my club where we read pretentious literature, listen to dreary romantic music with classic undertones, wear tweed fall in love with an idea and idk maybe commit murder?

Is it just me or does 2019 feel....off? Everything is boring, the weather is weird, summer doesn’t feel right. The world isn’t fun anymore. Breaking rules is for enjoyment. People are rude and selfish. Drugs are a priority. Everyone is losing friends, relationships are falling apart. It’s like we’re all...stuck. There’s no emotion anymore. 2018 was weird, but 2019 just feels plain sad. We’re all growing up and forgetting how to act.

I only know how to write free verse poetry

Piccadilly Circus, c. 1928-1955 

“you are what you consume, media, tv, social media, everything, so be conscious about who you are making yourself.”

— phoebe-does.

which brings me to my next theory, which is that we've seen an increase in screentime with kids along with 1) obviously, an increase in screentime with adults. people w/o kids love to say "parents shouldn't give their kids screens just to pacify them!" when they are constantly in the act of pacifying themselves with netflix, youtube, spotify, instagram, tumblr, whatever. but also, 2) an increase in the surveillance of parents and children. right? like, yes, screens pacify children. but there is also a value placed on "pacified children" in public spaces. i don't use that many screens with my kids (we keep the television in the closet lmao) and they tend to be goblins / gremlins / feral creatures / sobbing limp noodles -- at all times, but also in public. and yes, i have seen the glares and stares. reactions to their normal child behavior. people in general do not dig kids, man. and that's due to the separation of social spheres in this society... teenagers are over there, elderly people over there, parents with young kids over there, etc, and they are purposefully all kept separated, and people don't know what the fuck to do when the spheres intersect. if there was less social judgment of children and more of a cohesive helpful social structure things would be a lot easier for parents, and then parents wouldn't feel like they had to pacify their children with screens just to get through sitting in a waiting room. you know what i'm saying? i'm saying that your same impulse to judge the parent with the kid and the phone is the same watchful eye that makes the parent anxious and feel they have to use the phone with the kid.

ur twenties are weird. i have the priorities of a kindergartener again. i don’t know what in the hell is going on EVER. i like colors. i like soup. i want to take a nap