30 March (the First Day Of Classes)

Shout out to @messy-does-cosmology for putting in work, and being a good friend.

29.3.2021

This date is kinda fraudulent because it's past midnight now, but I'm giving myself a pass on being accurate because I am exahsted and I did about 10 hours of work today. I don't know if I've ever done that much work before in a day. Anyway I've been working on my research project report, and it's at 5500 words now out of about 6400 I need as the minimum for a first, so I only need to do roughly another thousand words to be in the clear (bibliographys don't count). I had a bit of a breakthrough because I worked out how to use the proper SDSS explore tool and it has been... life changing. I'm definitely going to be able to write another 1000+ words about my topic before I hand it in on Wednesday.

Day 29: Name your own aesthetic! What's an aesthetic you'd like to try out? I don't want to pretend to be a complex human being here but I really struggle to "try out" new aesthetics, because I feel very dismorphic about my own appearance often enough as is. Dressing like myself involves lots of primary colours, big jeans and a little shirt, or big jeans and a big shirt. I don't recognise myself otherwise. And if I were to name an aesthetic, it would be called astronomercore. It would involve a lot of fleece jumpers and thick jeans and gloves. And like maybe a big duvet stuffed in your backpack. Any fellow astronomy bitches will know.

I’m honestly kind of digging the silver tone.

Today I studied:

Calc 3

Linear Algebra

And Physics 🙃 (sometimes I can’t stand this field, but I shall persevere)

Also, does anyone have any tips on HOW to study? It’s new to me 😔

17 March (last day of classes)

This quarter has collectively brought out the best and and worst in me. From dealing with heart issues, to dealing with mental issues it hasn’t been a fun time.

I had hopes of getting straight A’s, but ultimately I find myself once again looking just to get through it without failing (read: anything less than a B+). The burnout has been real and very hard to with but, I persevered.

It’s ok just to get through the quarter...

I love y’all ✌🏿

Saturday, 6th March 2021

Physics - Waves Flashcards

I’m finally getting there with my flashcards catch-up! So many of my posts involve these physics notes but they’re one of the few consistently aesthetic things I have 😅

🎵 The Show Must Go On - Queen

23 April (life update)

So, keeping things honest I’m not doing the best right now friends. Over the course of the last 2 weeks one of my parents had a heart attack and the other is now on life support.

I really appreciate all of you who continue to support me and this study blog.

Morale of the story is that bad things happen to all of us, but it’s our actions after the fact that define us

Stay up ✌🏾

🎧 Trappin in paradise 78 - smooth sounds

Am I nonbinary? No I don't think so. Would I be totally chill if someone used they/them or other nonbinary pronouns for me? Yeah honestly. Call me whatever you want tbh. I don't even think using he/him would feel that weird to me. Like I'm pretty confident that I'm a woman but I really think I'd be chill with whatever pronouns (except for maybe it/its). Call me whatever honestly.

In a similar vein, I've been having questions about my sexuality recently and I was reading old journals and realized I was having those same questions three years ago too. But the difference is, then I was very distinctly calling myself bisexual so this potential change in identity was really difficult and upsetting for me. Now I pretty much just call myself queer so a potential change in the nuance of my queerness doesn't upset me at all.

a bunch of scribbles 

Linear algebra study session ✔️

Physics “lab” ✔️